it will all get better in time

my my, just how much ive missed you.

2008-09-22T14:02:00.002+08:00

its been a very long time since i
last blogged. its not exactly the time
its just i ran out of things to blog about.
i find it very difficult to put everything
in words. for those who knows me well enough, would
know exactly what im talking about.

today ive got only one thing to say.

hunn, im really sorry about you loss.
it kills me more than anything to not be able
to be there with youu. it really does. but we both
know that she's in a better place and you're strong
enough to go through this.

remember our old friend faith?

almost there;

2008-07-09T20:46:00.002+08:00

sorry for the lack of updates.
been super busy lately.
i dont exactly remember everything that
has been going on.

ill summaries the story.

first of all.
Happy BELATED 16th to ME! :)
hasif, chunkit and akif.

i had a good birthday thanks my girls[ you know who you are]
i had lots of funn! and i absolutely love you guys to the max kay.
& to the thoughtful ones that wished me, thank you very much
for remembering, it means alot to me.

im out of time.
continue another time.

HAPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY
ANIS ZAFIRAH! ;)

remember me?

2008-06-26T23:50:00.002+08:00

i must this week was rather, weird.
seriously lah kay, so much is going on.
but i would rather not elaborate about it,
my brain has practically no more space to fit
in anything that would make it go crazieee.

bought some dvds to keep me occupied for awhile.
i got private practice yo'. heee. cant wait for the weekend.
oh i loveeee! :) im so excited to watchh. heee.

nawwar picked me from school yesterday.
had lunch at bangsar village with her
then we headed to Aqil's house to pick up
nawwar's phone. it was Hilarious spelled with a capital H.

anyone curious go ahead to nawwars blog to find out.
im too lazy to type. anyways, tuition today was interesting..
liyana & sylfa came early so we had a little chit chat.
were in chap 3 for physics,oh how am i gladd.

now i feel like screaming, im too late? please.

3 more days to go!
im not exactly looking forward, but what the heck right?

mummy i miss youu.

Happy 16th Birthday Adrian Chen!

2008-06-26T12:42:00.000+08:00

new skin.
still deciding.
im off, update later.

quit playing games.

2008-06-23T16:59:00.002+08:00

saturday.
woke up, did some work.
waited for emina to come but she was still
asleep. then anis came over, talk talk for awhile then
sylfa came after so looong.

we headed to the hartamas carnival.
met up emina,syida & chloe.
then the dudes. alot of people were there.

but it was pretty boring though, and hot.
liyana came with the adiks around 2pm.
we did some stuff,played games.
nothing much actually.

the girls came over and we had a little
talk talk and karaoked like crazy people.

sunday.
nothing much except for sleeping
most of the time since i needed my rest before
school. i still feel sick,urggh! and later in the evening
was facial.my face was putih + merah at the same time.

so here iam, on a monday.
4 more days to saturday. hahaa.

so yeah,feeling pretty bored and sick.
i need some major cheering up. i need shopping.
i want that baju from naf naf so badly. haihh.
mummy come home soon!

they say that good things take time,
but really,
great things happen in the blink of an eye.

come back

2008-06-20T15:04:00.002+08:00

send mummy off this morning.
it was pretty dramatic i suppose.
we headed to klia at 630am.
got there checked in an everything and
settled with breakfast at mcd.

not long after mummy had to go in.
she cried but kelly cried the most. poor girl kay.
i mean i get it, i cried too but she's 8 and mummy
is her only one. i mean theres no dad in the house
so she feels all so insecure.

i dunno lah. i couldnt even cry in front
of her. i suppose it cause this time mummy
is going longer than usual, 1month kay.

anyways, my last few days :
has been spent at home and mostly the
toilet. yeah, im sick. very sick actually.
i cant even smell anything that is stronger than
massage oil. i cant even eat properly. urggh headache +
stomachache is killing me!

the 2days i had in school
was nothing much but on tuesday
we had the hari kerjaya thing and i manage
to get a pass so i got to skip almost the whole
day. haha. it was pretty fun actually.

i couldnt concentrate in tuition at all.
my head was spinning and spinning. haha.
but i miss school though. haha, yeah rightt.
it feels good to be at home kay.

nawwar & aiman [the girl] came over on
monday. got to catch up a little about her life.
but it was definetely not enough. we need to see
each other pronto!

i cant settle on which day to watch beauty & the beast.
cant wait cant wait! hopefully it will be a good show.
ive been downloading some pretty good songs. heeee!
oh david cook, i loveeee! :)

yes, no, maybe? i dunno.

it seemed everlasting.

2008-06-16T22:32:00.004+08:00

school was very, penat.
the class schedule has been change.
im not happy with it, but as usual ill get use to it.
chemistry was very different today, so many unexpected
news kay. i had no idea so much was going on. haha.

so anyways.
you know that moment when you ask for it
to happened and when it does you go all so crazy
and sad thinking how unfair life is and completely
forget that you wanted this, you asked for this.

but i didnt know it was going to hurt this bad.
and i didnt want it to turn out his way. i never meant
for it to be like this, like how it is right now.
it was just a thought. nothing more.

so i was looking through some old stuff.
i switched on my old old phone and i still have some
messages in there. some i dont even remember.
i miss alot of people you know, too much.

im off now.
im in no mood to drag this, this post is
officially fucked up.

ps. i know you read my blog.

dear icing, where have you been?

Every heart knows it's own bitterness and it's own joy.

2008-06-14T22:01:00.003+08:00

tuesday onwards.
school was as usual, got most of my papers back.
it was mostly disappointing, im pretty upset about it actually.
but i suppose its form 4. a whole new thing, it was bound to
happened anyway. haihh. frustrating kay.

watched p.ramlee the musical on wednesday night
it was awesome! no regrets. i loved it, even though
the first half was quite slow the second half was great.
it started alot later since there was so many VIPs on that night.
what a wrong day to go kay. it ended around 12midnight.

nothing much on thursday and friday.
so here iam on saturday.
headed to ou in the morning with mom,aunt,cousin & sisters.
walked around mostly with kelly. it was pretty fun actually.
rushed home cause my aunt was waiting for cousin
to go watch the musical at 3pm.

headed to curve soon after.
met up with lisa and her dad, and we were off to
cineleisure to meet the others.
i finally got to meet most of them. imissyouguyslah.
helped sylfa find her dad a gift.

we watched kungfu panda.
it was good. very funny. i really wanna watch it again.
from the beginning this time. we were late. pfft.
so typical of the dudes kay. and i when out in the middle
of the movie to get liyana and faez so i was sorta lost.
but it was good, no regrets.

i had lotsa funn actually, i havent had
any fun in awhile. curve was a good idea.
sarah & fikri are very interesting people to have
lunch with. haha. his very sick, i swear. you disgusting boy.

if i was gonna talk about the whole day.
i might lose my fingers. haha.

that smell, i miss it.

you know you love me.
XOXO

P.S.

2008-06-09T18:32:00.003+08:00

Back to school.
school was rather rushing today.
everyone was screaming and hugging.
people were rushing to the canteen. haha
damm funny weh.

I miss school though.
it occupies my time,alot rather
than being home doing nothing.
haha. didnt get any papers except for bm.
haha.im surprise, really surprise.

im so fed up with how things are going on.
im too tired to actually think through this and say
something about it, cause i know nothing can be undone.

but getting 'if havent notice, they're the new you'.
is so unfair. and it hurts knowing.
just so you know, i didnt want this as much as you
thought i did kay.

i never exactly wanted to write all of this in my blog
but i suppose you should know. i was scared and so insecure.
you should have known better than making me feel
so bad about it that i couldnt talk to you about it.

it wasnt easy kay, i just wasnt.
but i didnt have the option of telling you,
you made feel so pushed away the moment i wanted to say
something. it felt as if you were judging me.
i hope you know how much it hurt to feel this way.

never ever doubt how much i wanted all this to work.
babe, i miss you.

tagged.

2008-06-05T19:58:00.003+08:00

RULES
1. People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs and replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
2. Tag 5 people to do this quiz and those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by and cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. continue this game by sending it to other people

1. If your lover betrayed you, what will your reaction be?
make my girls kick him in the ass first then ill murder him :)

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
HAHA. no cant tell.

3. Whose butt would you like to kick?
chun kit! :) his moving.

4. What would you do with a billion dollars?
hhmm, shop, donate, give some to my mama,travel, & belanja people.

5. What's your ideal lover like?
FUNNY,nice,respect other peoples opinion,not selfish. and those stuff lah.

6. If there was one thing you want to change in the past,what would it be?
i wish i never send that msg.

7. How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
as long as i have to.

8. If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
find a new person :)

9. Is there anything that has made you extremely happy?
i suppose.

10. What takes you down the fastest?
when someone doesnt appreciate what i've sacrifice.

11. How would you see yourself in ten years time?
this is a hard question. skip :)

12. Who is currently the most important people to you?
mama,chorb, sisters & my kawans.

13. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
someone that will never turn you down. i love you lisaaa!

14. Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
depend who i marry.

15. What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
my phone.

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
yeah.

17. If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
none :) haha.

18. What type of people do you hate?
the ones take destroys other people relationship.

19. List 5 people to tag.
syida, nawwar,iman,anis, and lara.

watched narnia again. heee. but i was late so yeah.
bought a few things. cant wait for liyana to get backk!
come backk! : ) i got an unexpected call yesterday, chloe called.
i miss that girl. 3 more weeks babe!

right now, i dont want to handle this anymore. i dont have space for all this.

to be continued.

2008-06-04T13:00:00.000+08:00

HAPPY 17TH BIRTHDAY
AFIQ AMANI :)

but why

2008-06-04T01:31:00.000+08:00

cineleisure.
watched narnia with amina and farah.
the movie was awesome kay. im so inlovee.
i wanna watch it again. :)

after the movie we headed to the very nice
card shopp. bought afiq amani his birthday card
and walked around at mng.

we settled on having dinner at bubba gump
when none of us we hungry. pfft! what a waste
of money. haha. soon after, amina and i headed
to chillis, bsc to meet up with the others.

talk talk and had dessert and left.
send amina home so here iam at home.
helping sister do somekind of her arts and craft
thing called, thready: make a purse kit.
kinda cool actually, i sewed a purse! yayy me :)

there will never be another.

2008-06-01T11:47:00.000+08:00

penang trip.
tuesday - friday.
the trip was good, apart from my aching body. damm jet ski!
everything else was good actually
but i didn't exactly
get to do the things i had in mind.

headed to hartamas the night i got back.
bumped into alot people. and a few unexpected ones.
but it was fun, it felt good to be back.
got home and continued watching chuck, oh i love!

i cant put music in my iPhone. babi ah.
i feel alot more settled now. thank god.
it feels good actually, less burden. i should have
done this way back then.

ill get pictures later.

i'd walk a thousand miles.

2008-05-24T16:27:00.000+08:00

happy 17th you!

FINALLY! SCHOOLS OUT! :)

oh joy joy! hehe. while most of them left for
tioman friday night, iam stuck here in kl. i wish
i when but too bad mama didnt allow. oh well.

recap of my last few days.

the kenduri when well, alot more ppl came than
expected. my 2 mina's came, while the others
headed for azril's suprise party at montes. i wish
i made it there actually but its kay lah. family first.

i really wanted to get my ass up to school friday

but due to sleeping very late i didnt make.

i didnt even hear my alarm right. i wish i was there.

liyana slept over yesterday night.

we headed to plaza damas to meet up with syaz, syadil, haris and razlan.

i chilled with the three dudes while liyana and syaz mind their own
business. haha.

after the dudes left, liyana and i headed to starbucks.
the guy was seriously friendly to us, lets just say liyana
enjoyed her first free drink. haha.

he was such a flirt i swear. but who cares free drink!

im off now.

the little things

2008-05-21T14:41:00.000+08:00

some pictures.

took the day off from school, since we
do absolutely nothing. woke up in the morning
and when to the market to get some stuff for tomorrows
kenduri. its my grandma's 5th year. i miss her lah.
she was the paling awesome grandma lah kay.

hopefully the cousins, aunties and uncles
make it. no excuse kay. i really dont get some people
that picks social life over your own grandma.
come on lah, family first. haha.
my mom says that to me all the time.

mid term break is coming.
heee! finally. ive been looking forward
for the holidays. need to catch up on some stuff.
cant wait cant wait!

most probably going to kuching for a day or two
next week. everyones craving for food there.
haha. yes we are going to makan only.
theres nothing much to do the actually,
oh maybe go on boats. oh joy, sea sick!
im not exactly looking for to it.
but whatever lah. if everyone goes ill just go for
the funn of it. haihh. boring boring.

plus i wanna spend time with my dear
best friend that is moving. i cant believe he didnt
tell me. i cant believe he didnt. haihh. i know its no
big deal, its just school but. nevermind lah.
i suppose its okay, but ill miss him alot though.
noone to cheer me o and come over at 2am anymore
since he'll be living so far far away.

ohyaa. my annoying broke my phone.
literally. it can be bend into two now. haha.
it looks funny actually. but theres a good side of it.
the only extra phone left in the house is
just the iPhone. so yes be jealous people. haha

ku mahu kau tahu.

2008-05-19T20:15:00.000+08:00

friday night.

headed to hartamas square with liyana at around 11pm.
met syazz, syadil and the rest of atlas.
saw aiman there too. heee. i miss that guy.

saturday morning was Battle Of The Bands at Sri Aman.
it was great. Atlas did a good performance! everything was cool yo.
left around 4ish. headed home, after awhile

aunty marini came over. left for ikea. we ate steambot when i saw mr.5.
heee! i was so shock! haha. thank god he didnt see me.
he was with 4 other guys. no names should be mentioned.

sunday was flea market day at ara damansara. it was funn.
when with aunty marini & family. had seafood at pj for dinns. yummy!

wesak day.

my mission to wake up late, accomplish! im so glad. heee. i woke up at 11.45am haha. its been awhile since i woke up that late. got up, mandi-ed and ate lunch.

talked to everyone in the living. mom decided to go out to get some

stuff. it was so hard to get there. we called the shop and the lady was so bad at showing direction.

omg. it was horrible! she didnt understand and we didnt understand us.
look for the thing she wanted but dah habis. so sad kay,
we when all the way for nothing. ended getting some stuff there
and the shop a few doors away. we were happy with the things we found. left for kl to get some flowers. my mom never gets enough of flowers kay :) haha.

so here i'am on tuesday. school was fine, didnt get back any paper.
was just in the kaunseling room helping out for some stuff
the school is hosting. nothing much happened.

im off now.

you know you love me.

XOXO

you can't go back, you can only remember.

2008-05-16T11:26:00.000+08:00

Friday morning.

i automatically woke up at 6.20am
thinking i was going to school. haha.
i got up and when to the toilet,
then i realise
eh im not going to school today, no paper. haha

when back to sleep. woke up again around
8.15am.
headed to raju with aunt & sis. it was good.

i havent been there in ages.
i miss i miss.
we use to go there on sundays with the cousins.
oh i rinduu them. everyones been busy with
their own things. pfft!

i need retail therapy. but no money.
urggh.
im planning on asking my mom
but tah la. i feel bad,
ill think about it first.
i wanna go tioman! urggh.
my mom wont let,
she said the bus ride is dangerous.
haihh. oh whatever la.

im dizzy, im going off now.

you know you love me

XOXO

over and done.

2008-05-15T17:20:00.000+08:00

exams are officially over.
oh im so relief. heee.

no more stress. thank god. so far the whole thing was ok oklah.

i mean i didnt expect some of it. oh well. its over and done now.

updates on the last week.
Mothers Day on sunday was good.
we gave presents and i left for
tuition at 9am what a drag i tell you but due to the fact that
pyshics was the next day i had no choice. anyhow it was all good.
had late lunch at hard rock. it was good yo.
the mama's got 50% off on everything
. she that dude was nice he gave us all 50% off on our desserts. heee.

Happy 16th Birthday Ahmad Faris :)
we go back to 2000. heee.
ive known for a long time wehh. you rock. haha. i wanna watch ironman! urggh.
and what happens in vegas & narnia : prince caspian. heeee.
cant wait. i really need some chillings. penat like hell kay. + i need sleep.

something so fucking hilarious happened in school today.
akif got raped. literally. haha. he was joking around with ilyia and
the door.he was swing the door without realising that there was
a girl at the back of it,
she got fucking pissed off and started screaming at him.
then after everything
was over,she came to him started to strangle him and screaming at his face.
it was fucking gangsta kay. haha.

Rain Drops`

2008-05-09T16:16:00.000+08:00

MidTermExam! oh joy. not.
its been driving me crazy. urggh.
pening kay. 4 more stinkin days to go.
anyways, we're cool now. thank god.

i totally screwed up my bm paper. fuck.
and accounts paper1. haha. whatver lah kay.
im too tired to think about it.
mod maths was suprsingly hard. haihh.
the look on everyones face was fucked up. haha.

dear intan cried. it'll be fine beb :)
i need sleep. i need oxygen! hellp.
mission to do grreat for mid term : FAIL!
urggh. i hate it when this happens.
fuckfuckfuck.

im pretty disappointed actually.
scratch that im extremely disappointed.
urgh. i just wanna scream kay.
i need my social life back. cant wait for the holidays.

dear god, send me off to some island
for awhile :) pleaseee! ive been a good girl lately.
haha. im dying for a freaking time off from kl. & things.
im going off now,planning to revise pyshics.
we'll see :)

you know you love me.
XOXO

better in time.

2008-05-03T00:00:00.000+08:00

my first officially post on blogspot.
i haven't been blogging lately so decided
to just leave xanga.

exams coming soon, really soon.
pressure. urggh. mr.brain isnt exactly being nice.
fuck!. schools been school. everythings so noisy.
class is lonely.

i've a million of things on my mind right
now, i need a free ticket to anywhere in this world
where you're outta my head. haha. anyone that knows,
do let me know asap. please & thank youu.

im losing mr.tall shit.
we've been so apart lately and its awkward
for some reason. imma kill that fucking nigga when
i find out who told him about my cab trip. urggh.

everythings rather boring these days.
pfft. how sad lah kay. the two maids officially
left yesterday. major pening kepala.
oh god grant me the maximum level of patience.

mr.rubber, imma fucking chop
you into 18pieces just like what they
do at ayamas :) Love, bestfren NO1

xoxo
you know you love me.